I bumped into this song…While listening to “Latest from Live at the Opry” I am country like that…Country music is it. It is my sanctuary. I come alive while listening to it. It makes me feel everything from Pain to Joy and everything in between. God only knows how much I want to feel everything.
As a child, mum knowingly (I like to believe she knew) made us listen to country music…So we listened to Kenny Rogers, Dolly Parton, Jim Reeves, Alan Jackson, George Strait, Crystal Gayle… Up until today I thought that was the norm in many families too. But it was not. Or may it was? You tell me!
Anyway today I bumped ; The kind where you feel the pain in this case butterflies all over your body, The kind that makes a tear run out of your eyes only to feel it after the other eye is tearing too. The kind that makes you feel your heart. You hum to the song and smile to yourself while looking for tissue to dry your eyes.
And the tears. They won’t stop. You don’t want to answer your neighbor’s questions…those empty questions. I am never sure anyone even means it when they ask “Are you OK?”
One of these days I will speak very honestly.
Anyway. Today. Here I was. Crying while laughing. Smiling at myself. This song. I remember it. I always danced to it, paying little or no attention to the lyrics.
Today they made sense. All of them. As a child, the version I was familiar with is that of Don Williams. This version is even more beautiful…
“My daddy told me when I was a young girl
A lesson he learned, it was a long time ago
If you want to have someone to hold onto
You’re gonna have to learn to let go
You got to sing like you don’t need the money Love like you’ll never get hurt
You got to dance like nobody’s watchin’
It’s gotta come from the heart
If you want it to work…
Now here is the one thing I keep forgettin’
When everything is falling apart
In life as in love, you know I need to remember
There’s such a thing as trying too hard
You got to sing like you don’t need the money”
Kathy Mattea – Come From The Heart